Love is hard

Its been a long time, but i still haven get over him yet....
I thought time will wait for me, but i was wrong!
2 years have past, I still dun have the courage to say out, I thought god will give me more time to be prepared, but i was really very wrong.
Love don't wait for me!

How i wish that time will turn back, maybe things will change!
I have been in my own world, imaging all the good thing that will happen to me, imaging that he is mind, imaging that love is not that hard, but that is only my imagination!

After a long time, their love haven rust, they just got back together, my heart stop pumping for a moment, i cant breath, it was just like someone had stabbed into my heart and i felt that I'm dead!

I knew the god has given me chances for this 1 and the half year, but I'm so regret that i dun cheris it. Why, why am i SO stupid, why i just cant bring out the courage, there nothing wrong to say out what i want right, but why i just dun have the courage, WHY? I really hated myself for who i am, i hated, someone should have really stabbed me to death!

I knew the god have give out the miracle, but it was not to me but to their love, they created it.
Now i have left nothing, NOTHING! For this 1 and the half year, i always done stupid thing, i always have stupid thought and i always think negatively, because my love just cant find the right path!

I always wanted to FORGET, but i just cant, it is easy to remember him but hard to forget.
When he tease me and say all sorts of hurting words to me.
I tried to tell myself to hate him.
I tried to tell myself to forget him and i thought i have.

But when i heard the news about their love, my heart hurt a lot, hurt even more then someone has stabbed me and at that moment of time, i ask myself why aren't I'm dead? I shout in my heart WHY, and i think i should give in to my life, good thing has never happen to me and love is always that hard! I just give them my blessing but I WILL WAIT!